"all those sleepless nights reminds me of one thing though, how fast time passes us by...." -The trees and the wild

When I couldn't sleep at night, I think.
Think every little thing. Even the most unthinkable one.
So many thoughts are racing through my head and it's just too much.
It hurts. It hurts my head. It hurts my mind even more.

Mengkutip dari buku antologi rasa karangan Ika Natassa;

"And now I am going to leave with you with a short paragraph that mt bestfriend text me on new year's eve a couple of years ago and I hope this will lead you to do something that will change your life forever, like it did mine:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' heart. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take lots of pictures laugh a lot, freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun comes up, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

What are words

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 12 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.


1. If someone says "is this okay?" you say..
Adelaide sky - Adhitia Sofyan

2. What would best describe your personality?
Iris - The wanted cover

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Telling the world - Taio Cruz

4. How do you feel today?
Moves like jagger - Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera

5. What is your motto?
Drops of Jupiter - Boyce Avenue (cover)

6. What is your life's purpose?
Say - John Mayer

7. What do your friends think of you?
Nothing on you/my love/rocketeer mashed up - Boyce Avenue

8. What do you think about very often?
Haven't met you yet - Damian McGinty

9. What is 2+2?
Need you now - Lady Antebellum

10. What do you think of your best friend?
Untitled - Maliq & D'essentials

11. What do you think of the person you like?
Never felt this way - Adera

12. What is your life story?
Lost without you - Robin Thicke

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Always be my baby - David Cook

14. What will they play at your funeral?
Yellow - Boyce Avenue

15. What will you dance to at your wedding?
She is love (acoustic) - Parachute

16. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Every breath - Boyce Avenue

17. What is your hobby/interest?
Mean - Taylor Swift

18. What is your biggest secret?
Perfect (pink) - Boyce Avenue

19. What's the worst thing that could happen?
Someday - John Legend

20. What makes you cry?
You and me - Lifehouse

21.What makes you laugh?
Alejandro - All Time Low

22. What is the one thing you regret?
Never say you can't - Bruno Mars

23. Will you ever get married?
Broken Angel - Boyce Avenue

24. What scares you most?
Use somebody - Cameron Mitchell

25 What will you post this as?
What are words - Chris Medina


Well, I tag you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. And you. Last but not least, you.

11th

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you'd always be here.
But you have chosen a different road. 


Well, selamat ya buat hasil IELTSnya yg mencapai 6,5. Gue turut seneng lo bisa ngelewatin itu semua dan dapet hasil yang terbaik. Gue yakin lo udah yakin sama pilihan lo buat pergi kuliah ke Sing.
Dulu waktu gue denger Bu Ratna ngomong itu di kelas gue nanggepinnya biasa aja; "belajar yang bener, katanya mau kuliah di Singapur?" tapi sekarang gue baru sadar hal itu jadi penghalang buat gue. Gue ngerasa kenapa baru menyadarinya akhir-akhir sekolah. Saat masa SMA udah hampir berakhir.. But bisa dapet kesempatan sekelas sama lo aja gue udah seneng kok. Inget ga waktu kelas 11 itu gue benci banget sama lo karna lo yg udah nyindir gue di twitter waktu gue ngomongin tentang bola. Lo bilang lo juga kesel sama orang yang sotoy sok tau tapi pake ngetweet segala haha inget gak???? Tapi kenapa perasaan itu berubah 180 derajat..... Gue bahkan gak ngerti kenapa bisa ngerasain perasaan ini sama lo. Lo itu udah ngerubah gue, ngerubah gue dan membuat semangat gue buat ke sekolah semakin menyala. HAHAHA apaan sih gue..
Tapi jujur, gue jadi semangat ke sekolah kalo inget ada elo yang duduk di depan gue tadinya. Tapi setelah denah kelas diubah lo tetep sebaris sama gue, bedanya lo ada di depan meja guru gitu :p
Oh iya gue jadi keinget waktu mam Juwi bilang lo itu ganteng, kalo ditambah pinter lagi pasti pada naksir ato apa gitu ya.. Duh gue langsung mesem-mesem sendiri dengernya hehe
Semua hal-hal itu gue masih inget kok, apalagi sewaktu gue naek mobil lo pas mau foto yearbook. Lo.... gue udah ga tau lagi harus ngomong apa. Pas malemnya waktu lo bbm gue nanyain gue tadi gue pulang naek apa, pertama-tama gue ga langsung read bbm lo tapi gue nelvon sahabat gue dulu. Gue mau bilang ke mereka lo bbm gue!!! Ah lebay sih, tp ya emang gitu kenyataannya.
Udah deh malu gue jadinya ngebongkar semuanya hahaha habis sekarang gue juga ga ada kerjaan, yg ada mikirin elo lagi ngapain. Ya sebenernya intinya gue cuma mau bilang, lo hati-hati ya disana. Jaga diri ya... Gue yakin lo bisa survive dan lo bisa sukses sama kuliah lo. Lo harus tunjukin yang terbaik buat bokap nyokap lo. Terutama lo kan anak cowo pertama di keluarga.. Gue yakin lo bisa buat nyokap lo yang gue denger denger galak itu bangga sama lo :):):) setiap doa-doa gue akan gue sertakan juga nama lo supaya lo baik-baik aja disana nanti. Gue bingung harus ngomong apa... Susah rasanya mikir buat ngucapin selamat tinggal ke lo, kisah masa SMA gue. Kelak gue percaya, dan gue minta sama Tuhan supaya gue bisa dipertemukan lagi dengan lo. Keajaiban itu akan selalu ada kok :D
C, baik-baik ya disana. Apapun masalah lo itu, lo pasti bisa ngehadepin semuanya hehe babayy
*like you said to me*

Saturday, May 5th 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, C.
Wish you all the best things in life.
May all your dreams and wishes come true.
I wish you the happiest of birthdays this year and ALWAYS. :)

"For me, you'll always be 18."

PS. The world can wait for me 'cause the past few nights I couldn't sleep. Yeah 'cause I've been thinking about you lately. The thought of you makes me crazy.


By the way, thank you for your responses. It was real and i still can't believe it! You've made my day.
Aaaaa :3 such a fairytale! :p

Wel, inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell you how I feel, like how I miss you, how I love you, how I need you in my life, and especially how much I want you here forever by my side.
But those words may forever stay in my heart, locked inside.
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too.

A lot has been changed in a year.
But my love for you will never ever change.

Remember: you have my full support in everything you do.
"Whenever you're happy, I'm happy."

Dear you, C.

Dear you,
As each day passed without you,
it gets harder and harder to bare.
Each of these days I seriously can't wait..
until the moment I see you again.

Diambil dari sebuah sinopsis novel

"Aku mencandu segala hal manis-- terutama dirimu. Seperti madu di ujung lidahku, kecupan terasa manis menghangatkan sekujur tubuhku dengan rona malu. Seperti tiga sendok gula untuk tehku. Entah sejak kapan hariku tak lagi lengkap tanpa kehadiranmu. Jadi maaf jika aku seperti tak tahu malu mengakui ini dihadapanmu. Tapi sungguh, aku teramat membutuhkanmu. Butuh sekian lama waktu untuk menyadari ini, tapi sekarang aku benar-benar percaya. Hanya kau yang kumau. Hanya kau yang mampu membuatku merindu. Katakan, apa jawabanmu? Harus seberapa lama lagi bibirku mengering karena menahan diri membisikkan cinta untukmu?"

Sebuah kisah

Ini kisah yang terjadi di bawah langit Kota Jakarta. Tentang harapan yang muncul di tengah keputusasaan. Tentang impian yang bertahan di antara keraguan. Dan tentang cinta yang memberikan alasan untuk bertahan hidup.

Saturday, February 11th

"I'm so thankful for the moments, so glad I got to know ya."
That day I and my classmates went to Calico together. But I can't tell you what happened in that day, the point is... I was very happy.
In the next day I woke up and realized that yesterday was only a dream.

February, 20th

Hari ini hari pertama ujian praktik. Gue nyesel banget rela nonton ujian tari sampe semua selese dan akhirnya sekarang gue baru sampe rumah -_- kadang kalo dibilang cinta itu buta Ada benernya juga 😔😲👊

If only I could be yours....