Breaking Dawn Part 1

Ummm.. I hard to find words how good it was..
There are many conversations which i like most!

[after Edward has told Bella another wedding gift has arrived, he walks her away from the crowd]
Bella Swan: What's a wedding present doing out here?
Edward Cullen: Just a little more private.
[suddenly Jacob appears ahead of them]
Jacob Black: The best man didn't have time to get a tux.
Bella Swan: Jacob! Jacob!
[she runs towards him and jumps into his arms to hug him]
Bella Swan: Hey.
Edward Cullen: This is kind of you.
Jacob Black: Kind is my middle name.


Jacob Black: I'm sorry I'm late.
Bella Swan: It doesn't matter. Everything's perfect now.
Jacob Black: Dance with me?
[she steps closer to him and he picks her up to twirl her and then they start dancing]
Bella Swan: Where have you been? We were gonna put your face on a milk carton.
Jacob Black: I was in Northern Canada. I think. It's so weird to be back on two legs again and clothes. I fell out of practice with the whole human thing.
Bella Swan: Well are you okay? Being here?
Jacob Black: Why? Afraid I'll trash the party? You're not the only one. 


[as they continue to dance]
Jacob Black: You'd think I'd be used to telling you goodbye by now.
[Bella starts crying]
Jacob Black: Come on. You're not the one supposed to be crying, Bella.
Bella Swan: Everyone cries at weddings.
Jacob Black: This is how I'll remember you. Pink cheeks, two left feet, 
[he picks her up and twirls her and sets her down again]
Jacob Black: Heart beat.
Bella Swan: So what, soon I'm gonna be dead to you?
Jacob Black: No.


Jacob Black: I always knew you'd destroy her.
Edward Cullen: She thinks Carlisle can turn her at the last minute, like he did for me and Esme.
Jacob Black: Can he?
Edward Cullen: The probability is...is slight. And if her heart fails...
[he doesn't finish his sentence]
Edward Cullen: Look, Jacob, I need you to do something for me.
[Jacob gives a bitter laugh and turns from him]
Edward Cullen: For her. You have a connection with her that I'll never understand. Maybe you could talk to her, change her mind. You could keep her alive.
Jacob Black: And if I can't?
Edward Cullen: If she dies, you get what you always wanted. To kill me.


Jacob Black: Listen to me, Bella. Please! Just don't do this! Live, okay? Please!
Bella Swan: Jake, everything's gonna be okay.
[Jacob gets up to leave]
Bella Swan: Jacob, don't go!
Jacob Black: I know how this ends and I'm not sticking around to watch.
[he turns and leaves]


Jacob Black: Don't do that.
Bella Swan: What?
Jacob Black: Smile like I'm your favorite person in the world.
Bella Swan: You're one of them. It feels complete when you're here, Jake.


And, ada beberapa kata-kata menarik yang gue dapat dari novel-novelnya..


It’s not like love at first sight, really. It’s more like… gravity moves. When you see her, suddenly it’s not the earth holding you here anymore. She does. And nothing matters more than her. And you would do anything for her, be anything for her… You become whatever she needs you to be, whether that’s a protector, or a lover, or a friend, or a brother. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.176 


I’m in love with you, Bella. Bella, I love you. And I want you to pick me instead of him. I know you don’t feel that way, but I need the truth out there so that you know your options. I wouldn’t want a miscommunication to stand in our way. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.327


 Until your heart stops beating, Bella. I’ll be here — fighting. Don’t forget that you have options. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.330 

When he left, you spent all your energy holding on to him. You could be happy if you let go. You could be happy with me. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.333 

I really am sorry. About the other day, I mean, too. I shouldn’t have kissed you like that. It was wrong. I guess . . . well, I guess I deluded myself into thinking you wanted me to. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.373 

I’m exactly right for you, Bella. It would have been effortless for us — comfortable, easy as breathing. I was the natural path your life would have taken… If the world was the way it was supposed to be, if there were no monsters and no magic… 

Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.599

He’s like a drug for you, Bella. I see that you can’t live without him now. It’s too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun. 
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.599

I’m glad I came. I didn’t think I would be. But it’s good to see you… one more time. Not as sad as I’d thought it would be. 
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.59

I’m just here to be your friend. Your best friend, one last time. 
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.62 

You’d think I’d be used to telling you goodbye by now. 
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.63 

You’re not supposed to be the one crying, Bella. 
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.63 

That’s my girl. 
Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.64 

20112011 is not the same as 20092009

Waduh baru sempet ngeblog sekarang.. Padahal 20112011 itu punya makna tersendiri buat gue. Terutama ketika 20-09-2009 pukul 20:09.. Sesuatu yang engga akan pernah keulang untuk selamanya. Dia yang pernah ada di kehidupan gue. Waktu hari itu, hari Minggu tepatnya, perasaan gue gembira bukan main. Dia romantis... Dia juga pernah sms gue, "Aku boleh nanya sesuatu ga?", dan ternyata dia mau nanya "Adakah aku sedikit dihatimu?" JELAS ADA. Sampai sekarang pun masih gue simpan beberapa perasaan gue itu.
Well, semua itu udah berakhir. Tapi perasaan itu terkadang masih hadir.. Entah ketika gue liat fotonya kembali, hal-hal unik yang dulu gue lakuin sama dia, ketika dia marah sama gue, segala hal gokil dia yang buat gue ketawa.... itu semua engga bisa gue lupain. Cuma dia yang masih terngiang di benak gue. But sometimes gue ngerasa nyesel banget pernah menyianyiakan kesempatan yang udah dia kasih untuk keberapa kalinya. Bahkan ketika gue ngerasa engga ada kemungkinan lagi dia mau kasih kesempatan ke gue, dia pernah nulis status "in every impossible, there is a possible." Gue seneng banget. Banget. Ngerasa dengan PD, wah itu gue masih dikasih kisi-kisi sama dia bahwa gue masih mau dikasih kesempatan untuk ngerubah sikap gue. In fact, gue buang kesempatan itu begitu saja. In another words, gue mikir itu bisa jadi sesuatu yang positif untuk engga ngulang lagi ke depannya.
Gue masih inget salah satu kata-kata dia yang pernah gue denger pas dia ngomong sama temennya di Gonz Fest, "Gue sih pacar cukup satu tapi untuk selamanya." Terkadang gue engga percaya sama "forever".
Time goes by so fast.. Sekarang dia sudah sama yang baru, dan diakhir hubungan dia selalu bilang kalo gue lebih pantes dapetin orang lain yang bisa lebih buat gue nyaman dibandingkan dia. Sedih tapi senang juga.. Dia bisa ngelepasin gue dengan ikhlas. Kalo pun kamu baca blog ini, aku cuma mau bilang makasih banget ya udah ngasih aku kesempatan yang begitu banyak dan maaf aku engga bisa gunain kesempatan itu sebaik-baiknya. Kamu masih jadi yang terindah dan terbaik sampai saat ini. Doain aja ya aku dapat orang yang kamu inginkan buat aku dapetin biar kamu seneng... :")

Love is you
Love is you and only you
Love is no one else but you
I love you dear
- TRD (2009)


I'll sing this song for you.. "I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling, don't be afraid.. I have loved you for a thousand years. I'll love you for a thousand more.." - Christina Perri (A thousand years)

11-11-11

Dear you,
I wanna be the girl who makes your bad days better, the one that makes you say "my life has changed since I met her."

I love you. I want you. Right now.

Sincerely, me.
11-11-11

Terkadang gue ngerasa kalo ngandelin orang lain itu hasilnya diatas 50% mengecewakan. Gue udah sangat menjauhkan diri dari yang namanya ketergantungan sama orang. Actually, it isn't make us lebih untung atau pun jadi lebih terbantu.. Lebih baik kita mengandalkan diri sendiri, especially selalu mengandalkan pencipta kita, Tuhan. Because, gue udah ngerasain gimana rasanya terjebak disuatu masalah yang rumit banget, dan ketika kita cerita ke orang lain pun, mereka sama sekali engga bisa kasih apapun. Paling sekedar kata "sabar ya" atau kata kata minimalis lainnya. Jangankan cerita ke temen biasa, ke temen deket pun terkadang seperti engga ada bedanya. Semua sama aja, engga bisa bantu kita apa apa. Di dunia ini kita dituntut untuk hidup mandiri, dimana sekarang gue yakin masalah yang gue hadapin itu ya emang harus gue yang hadapin dan selesein semuanya. Orang lain cuma bisa bantu support atau pun mendoakan aja. Yang bisa bikin semua itu lancar dan sukses cuma 2; Tuhan dan diri kita sendiri.

Sekarang gue belajar buat sedikit egois. Belajar buat sedikit mendahulukan kepentingan gue dulu dibanding orang lain. Kadang gue mikir, kayaknya semua orang sama aja. Tapi semakin gue berpikir seperti itu semakin gue engga bisa mikir mana yang bener dan yang mana salah. Gue berusaha buat beri yang terbaik untuk kedua orang tua gue. Nilai nilai di semester 5 ini yang menurut gue udah cukup naik pesat itu, gue berharap bisa menyenangkan hati nyokap gue. Itu aja sih sebenernya, karena gue sebagai anak ngerasa engga pantes kalo udah di sekolahin mahal mahal tapi dibales dengan rasa males, ogah ogahan sekolah, nilai yang engga memuaskan. No offense dan jujur aja ya, emang bener kan tapi??? Gimana perasaan orang tua yang tau ternyata kelakuan anaknya kayak gitu sedangkan mereka udah cari nafkah untuk kita sampai kerja pontang panting sampe malem..