Ganesha!

HAD A GREAT DAY OFF YESTERDAY!

RAN and BLP was very awesome!

Jadi gini, kemaren tuh acara closing ceremony sekolah gue, yg menghadirkan bintang tamunya itu RAN dan BLP. Siapa sih yg belom kenal RAN? Siapa sih yg belom kenal BLP?
Bener-bener fantastik banget ya kemaren itu, dalam beberapa lagu yg dinyanyiin sama RAN, Jadi gila, Tunjukkan cintamu, Karena kusuka dirimu, dan yg paling ngehits banget Pandangan pertama bisa bikin seisi ruangan aula SMAK 7 ngerasa hidup banget men!

Penampilan dari personil RAN sendiri; Rayi, Asta, dan Nino mampu membuat para wanita berteriak kencang memanggil nama mereka. Termasuk gue yg juga ada di barisan depan kemaren. Waw, bulu kuduk gue berdiri pas ngeliat mereka ber-3 ada di depan gue yg nggak lebih dari 5 meter itu! Hahahahaha lebay banget sih ampe bulu kuduk berdiri -_-
Tapi seriously, emang itu yg gue alamin kemaren!

Untung aja suara gue gak serak karena manggil-manggil kak Rayi mulu buat dateng nyalamin kita-kita penonton yg dibawah. Dan ternyata itu beneran terjadi, dan gue langsung nyamber tangannya dia itu. Huahaha bahkan sebelah kanan gue sempet teriak kayak gini ke kak Nino, "Kak Nino sini dong ini aku Pevita Pearce!". Bener-bener ketawa ngakak gue saat itu. Tapi ya, ada satu hal annoying abis sewaktu gue mau videoin mereka lagi perform, BlackBerry gue nggak bisa buka aplikasi video! Gila abis, gue langsung bingung harus gimana, ..dan hasilnya gue cuma dapet beberapa foto ini.

Waw!

Fantastic!

I love ya! Hahahaha *ngarep abis*

Oke, udah liatkan beberapa foto andalan gue saat ini? Huahahahaha ya emang seneng banget gue bisa dateng ke acara closing ceremony dari Fortelations yang diadain setiap tahun oleh SMAK 7. Pastinya lebih seneng lagi bisa ketemu cowo-cowo ganteng yg berdiri di depan panggung bawain lagu andalan mereka.

Kalo pas BLP, gue nggak dapet bagian paling depan lagi, soalnya gue emang telat lari ke depannya. Gue cuma bisa ngeliat Dennis maen saxophonenya yg oke abis. Bener-bener nggak nyesel dateng ke Ganesha kemaren, meskipun gue udah terburu-buru siapin semuanya.

Thanks banget buat RAN dan BLP yg mau dateng ke acara kita kemaren! Semoga tahun depan bisa dateng lagi ya ngisi acara SMAK 7.

Satu hal penyeselan gue kemaren itu adalah.. gak bisa nonton tanding basketnya Fons Vitae 1. Sampe sekarang ini, gue bener-bener nyesel banget. Ya udahlah ya yg penting mereka udah bisa dapet juara meskipun juara 3. Iya bukan sih? Hahahaha sebenernya sih gue mau nontonin Fons Vitae karena ada alesan lain........ Hehehe aduh jadi malu ah kalo diomongin di blog.

Ok sampe ketemu di Fortelations tahun depan ya, semoga aja semua lancar dan tahun depan gue bisa ngeblog tentang guest star diacara penutupan Fortelations lagi kayak sekarang ini. See ya!

XOXO 

Why are you always in my mind?

Selama seminggu ini sekolah gue ngadain event namanya Fortelations. Kemaren tepatnya gue kagi nunggu-nunggu tim basket putra dari Fons Vitae 1 tanding. Tapi sayangnya saat mereka mau tanding turun hujan deres banget. So, gue nunggu di TK.
Entah kenapa gue emang nungguin banget mereka maen. Karena hujan nggak kunjung reda, gue akhirnya nunggu di depan kumon. ..And unexpectedly, I saw someone I hate leaving, someone that I can’t get enough of, someone that accepts me for who I am & doesn’t tell me I need to change, someone who I can fall madly in love with. But now, he is my ex boyfriend.
Pengen banget gue panggil dia dan gue bantuin sesuatu, karena gue tau dia lagi sibuk banget. Tapi gue mendadak inget masa-masa itu. Masa-masa dimana kita ketawa-ketawa bareng seakan dunia cuma milik kita. Hahahaha agak lebay sih tapi ya udahlah apa lagi yg bisa gue lakuin? Mending sekarang mikirin ke depannya gimana dibanding harus mikirin yg udah lewat itu. No one knows what will happen tomorrow.

Ok sekarang gue udah mau siap-siap mandi. I'm going to Ganesha today with @akeminekkomimi, @roselinkarina, @gdnslika, @eveveeveve, @veronicakirana and etc. It will be getting very excited!
Be there guys!

There's no me without you.

And it seems like the world is crashing at my feet
You like me the best when I'm a mess
When I'm my own worst enemy
You make me feel beautiful
When I have nothing left to prove
And I can't imagine how I'd make it through
You hear what I say when I don't say a word
You are my rising sun, you're the place I run
You know how it hurts when everything falls apart
And when you say, "Baby, it's gonna get better"
I believe you and I wish that somehow
I could see me the way you do
With my imperfections, you think I'm perfect
When it's not easy, you make it worth it
When everything falls apart
There's no me without you
No, me without you.

Ashley Tisdale - There's no me without you. 

The true fighter

..Kenyataannya cewe pasti lebih memilih cowo yg nggak cuma menyatakan cintanya saja, tapi juga mau memperjuangkan cintanya itu.
Semuanya pasti butuh perjuangan. Dan oleh karena itu, siapa yg mau berjuang untuk mendapatkannya pasti mendapat banyak nilai lebih. Cewe itu suka dengan cowo yg mau berjuang untuknya karena dengan itu cewe ngerasa sangat berharga untuk diperjuangkan.
Apapun hasil yg telah diperjuangkannya, mau menang atau kalah, yg paling penting adalah niat yg muncul dalam hatinya untuk berjuang itu. Itulah yg gue sebut sebagai "The true fighter".


I love it!

Dikutip dari FTV Ratu Cinta Kilat, di SCTV.
Cast: Nikita Willy, Ricky Harun.


FTV ini bisa bikin gue ngerasa apapun yg ada di dunia ini emang harus diperjuangin. Semuanya gak bisa didapet dengan mudah. Pengorbanan yg gue liat dari FTV ini dimana seseorang yg telah menyatakan cintanya kepada Farah (Nikita Willy) mau berjuang menjadi yg tercepat. Entah menjadi tercepat dalam apa, tp menurut Farah itu merupakan sesuatu yg mau diperjuangkan oleh cowo itu untuknya. Dan setelah Farah memberi tahu kepada Ben (Ricky Harun), dia pun sadar bahwa cinta pun butuh perjuangan. Dia mau berjuang untuk Farah dalam lomba lari maraton di sekolahnya. Meskipun pada akhirnya Ben kalah, tapi Farah tetap menghargai perjuangan Ben itu.

Kesimpulannya, gue sadar bahwa semuanya itu pasti membutuhkan perjuangan. Meskipun diawal gue suka ngerasa gue nggak bisa ngelakuin, tapi dengan mencoba melatihnya gue yakin itu pasti bisa dilakuin. Seiring dengan semangat dan perjuangan gue, dan tak lupa doa. Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala pasti menyertai dan membimbing jalan kita. InsyaAllah. Amin.

Everything's changed

It’s getting so hard to be around you. Because every time I see you, I see a stranger. You’ve changed, and I just miss the person you used to be. The one that cared, the one that wouldn’t ever hurt me, not if they could help it. But now, now all you care about is yourself. Maybe you never did care in the first place, I’m not sure. All I know is the person I loved so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Everything’s changed, and I miss the person you used to be. All good things end eventually, but I wish you would have stayed at least a little bit longer.

I think when you are young, you are hoping that this person will be the right one. The one you are going to
be in love with forever, but sometimes you want that so much, you create something that isn’t really there
i want you to remember me some day, i want you to hear our song at some random moment,
and i want you to feel a stabbing pain go right through the middle of your heart. and for that fleeting moment in time, i want you to feel like i did.
Nobody understands how much i miss you.
I miss how much we used to talk, and miss all the things we used to do. I try not to admit it to myself that i still feel this way.
Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you each day. I still think of you and i really do miss you. I would give up everything i have, just to be everything we’re not. I finally realize the person I fell in love with
isn’t here anymore. So why am I?
I'm sorry I'm so akward. -theresiamulyani.

So i just saw your Facebook profile. Because i missed you.
Ok, I'm heading to sleep. Now it just 00 a.m.
Life is wonderful. Thank ya all who impact my life. Family, friends, and especially you!
Goodnight my dear, let my prayer banish your fear. The stars shine so bright, close your eyes, sleep tight. Xoxo

Dont tell me you love me, if you dont mean it.

No one crys, because they want to.
If we did all the things we were capable of doing we would literally astonish ourselves.
My heart is on my sleeve and thats where its gonna stay until the day youre brave enough to come over and tell me the things you were to scared to say.
You can always tell how much you love someone by how much they can hurt you.
It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen,
but it’s even harder to give up, when you know it’s everything you want.
Everyone wants to know why I won’t let you go.
It’s because if I walk away I know you won’t come after me.
Tonight I’ll sit under the stars & make thousands of stupid wishes & always the same one: that someday
you’ll love me like I love you.

You know, people are always asking, “Are you okay?”
But they’re never really expecting the truth.. Cause the reality of the matter is, if I was okay, you wouldn’t
really have to wonder.
I miss your smile, the way it was always crooked. I miss your eyes, the way you’d always roll them at me. I miss your stupid stories that i never really got. But most of all, i miss you. i miss you a lot.
Be kind to everyone. You may not be able to save a person, but at least you weren’t one of the people who didn’t try.

After all we’ve been through I can’t believe I’m standing here breathing without you.

You’re the type of person people could write a million songs about.
You say you can’t live without me,
so why aren’t you dead yet?

Your smile. Sometimes, I swear it’s the only reason I’m alive.

Do you ever wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance, wake up in the emergency room, and hear the doctor say, “she isn’t going to make it”, just so you could find out who really cares about you?
Never bother a girl listening to her ipod. She wants to be alone. She’s in her own world, where the only thing going through her head is music. A world where worries don’t exist. She’s tuning
the real world out. You could see it in her eyes. when someone talked about
him when she saw him, she loved him and it killed her.
One day we flirt and share whispered secrets, then the next you can hardly
say two words and I wonder if it was all just a dream. Maybe I’m over you or maybe
I’m done chasing you, but honey, the highs and lows are wearing me out.

Stop saying you're sorry.

You thought it hurt when he said, “Let’s just be friends.” Wait until he says, “You’re like my sister.”
You can always tell how much you love someone by how much they can hurt you.
It’s not that I don’t really love you. It’s just I need to let you go. Why? Because your games are getting really old.I don’t know how far I can go because my patience is near empty. You acting like nothing is going on. And to be honest it’s killing me.
Stop saying you’re sorry. You wanna know something? I knew.
I knew you didn’t feel that way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen…
because, well, I figured that one night with you was better than never.
So, will you stop saying you’re sorry?
Because you didn’t know better, but I did.
I will never be able to love someone the way I love you.
What if we already met the right person, but we met them during a time when we weren’t ready to fall in love?
Before you give up on someone, you’ve got to remember why you’re still holding on.
We scream our insecurities but mutter our apologies. And that’s why this world will always be so wrong.
I miss those midnight conversations. I miss how you would make me laugh out of my own frustration. But you just come to know that you get so used to being loved, and in one second it can all come crashing down. Now I know to not let anything get that far ever again, because I didn’t know how I could wake up one morning and have it all hit me.
I didn’t know I could miss you this much.
It’s over before you know it, it all goes by so fast.
Yeah the bad nights take forever and the good nights don’t ever seem to last.
And I want to be there for you, I do, but I can’t do this anymore.
I can’t keep being your second choice… not when you’re my first.
Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.
This is not who i meant to be; this is not how i meant to feel
i don’t think i am strong enough to do this much longer.
The worst part of missing you is watching you move on.

Everyone admits that love
is wonderful and necessary, yet no one agrees on just what it is.
And when you forget her don’t you dare remember me.
If i could change anything about you, it’d be the way you feel about me. No, scratch that it’d be that you’re a complete incompetent asshole.
People say theres always a perfect person out there for everyone but i seriously think mine got hit by a truck.
My theory is that maybe if I keep my distance, you’ll start to miss me.
Look down at your chest and a little to the left.
that’s where i’ll always be.
lets count the starts on reasons
why we should be together, &&
i bet we will run out of stars before
we run out of reasons.
You can erase someone from your mind, but getting them out of your heart is another story.
She’s not gonna forget about you. you mattered to her.
you don’t forget about the people you care about.

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, it doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.

Truth be told i miss you.

The truly painful goodbyes, are the ones that are never said, and never explained.
The scariest thing about memories is thinking you’re going to forget about them.
It’s hard to watch people change right in front of you. But the worst part is remembering who they used to be.
I could conquer the world with one hand as long as you are holding the other. :>

I feel so motherfucking good.

Go ahead and break my heart,
it’s useless without you anyway.
Fake a smile. You’ll make yourself look pretty and you won’t have to explain.
This world’s messed up. It’s confusing. It’s filled with liars, cheaters, jealous people, obnoxious people, sad
people, happy people and so much more. But, if you look beyond all of that, you realize that it’s not so bad.
It’s actually pretty beautiful.

The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy
to tell others how much they love them while they’re still around.

You know how I know I must love you? Because I’ve seen into the darkest corners of your life, I
know the worst thing you’ve ever done, and I still can’t imagine my life with anyone else.

I am strong because I am weak. I am beautiful because I know my flaws. I am a lover because
I am a fighter, And I am fearless because I have been afraid. I am wise because I have felt foolish, And I can laugh because I’ve known sadness.

..I’m moving on,
But I will never forget you.
You have become so apart of my life,
& I can never thank you enough for all the happiness you brought to my life.

If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.

“You haven’t lost your smile at all, it’s right under your nose. You just forgot it was there.”

“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we’re apart.. i’ll always be with you.”

Please go and read. Right now.

Sometimes we say goodbye to people we love without wanting to though, that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them or that we’ve stopped caring, its just sometimes saying goodbye

is a painful way of saying “i love you.”

I do love you, don’t you see it? don’t you understand you

are the love of my life? i cant leave you, but you are constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, but the you come back when you want.
So, i’m asking you, if you don’t see a future for us, if your not in this, please just end it, because i cant. i’m in it. Put me out of my misery.

I believe the most difficult choice you will ever have to make is whether you should just move on, or hold on a little tighter. Moving on, and maybe you’ll loose a chance at the best thing that could ever happen or hold on and face the possibility of being the biggest disaster ever created. We used to talk about everything.
Now its impossible to have a decent conversation with you.

..People say that the bad memories cause the most pain but actually its the good ones
that drive you insane."

I’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn’t do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and
most of all.. for not hating you which I know I should… but I can’t.

Lets be honest with ourselves.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to be happy for someone else. “You can do better and you deserve so much more,” I’ve heard the speech a trillion times. And even though I know it’s true, I don’t want better. I want you.
Let’s try to keep this simple because I hate having to write
massive entries. The thing is you’re unbelievably arrogant and ever since you’ve entered my life, it’s be chaotic. But, you’re also one of the best things that has happened to me. So, I guess you’re worth the lines in my journal.Whenever you feel a warm breeze brush against you, that’s the kiss I blew to you.

I thought that you were the one who made me feel complete. Then after awhile i realized, you were the one
making me feel empty all along. And sometimes i wonder who would actually miss me if i ran away and never came back. :)

Hey guys sorry haven't been blogging. I have so many exciting things i want to share with everyone but can't just yet. Soon enough. Soon enough.